What game is she playing?

When she doesn't want to have sex, which is pretty much most of the time, if indeed there is no time away from the kids, I feel ...

I feel low and moody and want to be on my own. But it doesn't help to say that. I don't even feel there is anything I want to scream out in anger, unless it was to say that she makes no effort. But you can't force someone to be sexual. Probably I don't make enough effort either, just feel my arousal and in most cases, the kids are there or its two late at night and she doesn't respond, she doesn't want to respond, she's resisting. A friend told me that he noticed with his wife that when they don't make love for over a month, there is a kind of resistence in the female that builds up. I don't understand that. I thought that people just liked having sex.

Anyway, I don't want to talk. There's nothing to say. I've held this conclusion from childhood that there is nothing sexually appealing about me. So as much as I hate the new age crap, there is truth that you get what you project. But she doesn't open up to her part, she just ignores and I have no compassion for that kind of behavior. Check-mate. I have no idea how to advance from here except get over the emotional down and continue the usual cycle of this. Just fuck it. I never liked the game that the woman that I knew played.

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